My Christmas Wish?

Is it too early to be publishing my Christmas wish? Surely not? My neighbours have had their rather interesting Christmas decorations up since 1 November, so surely I can get away with just one little wish.

No beating around the bush on this one. I want a new medical team. Yes, a whole team. I’m sacking the lot of them simply because I don’t trust any of them to have my best interests at heart, nor do I think their expertise are up to the challenge of my chronically bad health.

Yes, that is harsh. I know, and my health professional friends will be saying “give them a break!“. But really, that’s what I’ve been doing for too long. I can’t do it any longer. I can’t pretend I didn’t notice the inaccurate information and that I haven’t been treated as a person with unique needs, and not just a number.

I’ve had enough!

In the past six months, my need for good medical advice has been growing. By this stage, I had hoped to be well underway for getting treatment for identified medical issues. I thought I knew what was going on with my body, but it turns out that I don’t and a big part of that is down to getting incorrect information from my family doctor (GP).

I have an autoimmune condition called Graves’ Disease. I first had it diagnosed in 2010, and it has been assumed that I got it as a result of taking the psychiatric medication Lithium. At that time it was treated with medication and I eventually went into remission but I always knew it would probably come back at some stage. This year, I had all (okay, not quite all!) the signals that my Graves’ had relapsed and I have been waiting to see a specialist (an endocrinologist) for a while. I finally saw him last week.

In preparation for my appointment, I was sent to have a thyroid scan. I was asked several times whether I was taking anything with iodine, but I knew I wasn’t allowed iodine so was confident I wasn’t.

Except for a sneaky multivitamin, my GP has recommended I take some weeks earlier. Knowing I can’t have iodine I double-checked with the GP about something listed in the ingredients as “potassium iodide“. She told me (actually in writing via a text message) that “potassium iodide isn’t iodine” and so I could safely take the multivitamin. I thought that was the end of it.

Fast forward to last week and I am at the specialist appointment. He showed me the scan taken about a month earlier as well as my last scan in 2010. I expected they would be the same but they weren’t. He told me that this current scan doesn’t show any Graves’ Disease. He never said how I could have it in 2010 and not now, and because I was busy thinking about how sick I’ve been in the past months, I didn’t think to ask.

The consult went on until somehow I thought of the potassium iodide (which I had always thought was odd it wasn’t iodine). I think he asked to confirm I wasn’t taking any iodine. He was quick to tell me that potassium iodide is, in fact, iodine and I should never have been taking it.

Even more, because I had been taking it all of my blood tests and the scan would be wrong. Actually, he was pretty angry. There wasn’t quite steam coming out of his ears, but just about. The consultation came to an abrupt halt. I would have to wait three months for the iodine to get out of my body so that they would have some show of determining exactly what is going on. Meanwhile, I was clearly wasting his time!

I left feeling really angry at my GP giving me something that must surely have been pretty basic information. It was just one more time when she had made a mistake in the 18 months I have been seeing her. It’s time to find a new GP. One that will see me as a unique human being with needs that, while they might not matter to her, they matter to me a lot. More than once I had been her “first patient” with a particular issue. This must have been her first GP job!

But the story isn’t over. Less than a week later I received a copy of the specialist’s report and discovered that he had determined my eye problems over the past six months were also not Graves’ related. He hadn’t said this at the time, and I assumed that matter would be left to the Ophthalmologist appointment in two weeks time.

Now I am left with the big question:

If Graves’ is not causing my eye disturbances
(think chronic pain and double vision) then what is causing it?”

I find this rather disturbing. Of all my health issues, I think it’s fair to say that my eyes are my biggest worry. What is going on? And what will happen next? I have this probably irrational fear of being able to cope with everything else but “please don’t take my vision away!”. Ok, now I’m getting anxious!

Both of the specialist’s determinations  – no Graves’ Disease and no Thyroid Eye Disease may turn out to be wrong when in three months time the iodine is gone from my body and he sees me again, but all of this is unsettling. Autoimmune diseases don’t just vanish, so I don’t accept what he says. And my eyes? Well, apart from being constantly reminded that ‘something’ is going on with my eyes but who knows what? I think to say I am unsettled is an understatement.

Back to the point of this though, I’ve had it with doctors. I want new doctors who care about my concerns, know what they’re talking about and stick to their speciality base. I want to know my doctors have dealt (successfully) with this condition before. I get that I have multiple conditions, both of physical and mental nature. I’m not a patient who will come once a year for a flu jab. I have had great doctors in the past. I have also had terrible one’s, including one who has recently come out of prison having be charged with sexually abusing patients. I know that good doctors exist. I just want one for me. Is that too much to ask?

Oh, and I want a new dentist too. But that’s another story, for another post.

Thanks for reading





3 thoughts on “My Christmas Wish?

    1. Wow, that’s a relief. I was a little worried that you might tell me the GP was right after all. What I didn’t add is that while the Endo wrote that it was wrong in his report, he wrote it so that it seemed it was my fault. I didn’t appreciate that. Anyway I have my eye on a new GP. Just have to check she is taking new patients. That always seems to be the problem here. The good ones have their books closed.

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      1. UGH. There is no sense of betrayal like that when the people who are supposed to be there to help you, gaslight and belittle you instead.

        It’s the same here with GPs. It’s easy to find one taking new patients. What’s not easy is to find a good one, sadly. So much for the first world.

        Best of luck! Hope you get your Christmas wish granted

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